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sometimes you have those days when you wake up on the right side of the bed. and you get a better grade than you expected on your paper. or your boss affirms all your hard work and lets you know you haven't been slaving for nothing. and you help and old lady cross the street. and you remember to have a conversation with God, thanking Him for everything He's given you. and you come home to a clean house. and your checkbook is balanced. and your boyfriend (or fiance ;) ) tells you how much he loves you. and how you're the most beautiful woman he's ever laid eyes on. and you reconnect with a long lost friend. or have an awesome conversation with a new one. and you have clothes on your back, food in your stomach and a roof over you head.

sometimes you have those days where nothing bad really happens. and you're happy. and content.

but.....
you want more.

i was having a conversation with my best and she told me that nothing was really wrong right now, but she just wants more. and i told her that it's okay to want more. in all aspects.

life, i'm sure most of you can agree, could be better, but it could also be a lot worse. and as far as "wanting more" goes... i guess there has to be a balance between the desire for more and appreciation for all the wonderful things life is giving you.

i'm not gonna try and front... of course i want my debt to be erased and i want to have the new iphone and i wish i could see my friends everyday and i want to chill all day every day and do what i want when i want and i want all the flyest shit and be one of the flyest girls you know.

but my life right now makes me very happy. bcuz theres a fine line between wanting something and needing something. i have the things i need (loving parents, an awesome fiance, a nurturing big sister, a job etc) and even some things i dont (a car, a laptop, hella makeup etc) i know i know.. car? laptop? technically i don't NEED them. life would be a LOT harder without em but i'd survive.

the desire i have proves to me that there is always something to move forward to. or work for. or strive for. it lets me know that i haven't plateaued. but it also is a reminder to never stop being thankful for the things i do have and to be proud of the things i've already accomplished.

its all about balancing ambition and appreciation.

kinda like when you're running outside.. of course your mind is set on the end destination. but try processing the scenery.. absorb the sun beaming down on you, breathe the fresh air... admire the flowers.. take note of the world. but get to where you're going.